my voice screaming into the void

I am Ang, Angel, Angelina, mom, momma, wife, momma to animals and auntie to so many.

I am also someone with a massive hole in my heart. Its not just broken or shatters, because that menas it could be fixed. No, there is a gaping hole. My amazing Dahlia is gone and has been gone almost as long as I carried her. She was at my side for 12 years, 8 months and 8 days. 02/02/2012 to 11/10/2024. We was planned, wanted, and loved deeply by so many. I don’t understand why she left. It was from her own actions, but I dont think she meant to and I could never imagine her making a choice taking her own life.

I am broken. But. I am still me. I am still a mother to Sophia, a wife to Nate, a mom to animals. And now a auntie/extra mom to those kids Dahlia left behind.

I am me.